Never Hate you, till now…

I never thought I could …..

Hate you, that is.

I never thought I would…

Hate you, that is.

You have betrayed me, hurt me, damaged my soul more than anyone ever could…

You know why?

Because I believed you, I trusted you, I thought, …. I thought… I actually knew you!

Jokes on me….

The joke is on me you see,

I am the fool!

You once hung the moon, in my eyes…

I had you up on a pedestal, soo very high.

Childhood friends,

Confidants,

Lovers,

Loves…

Firsts…

Friends….

Or, So I thought….

I opened up, like a bleeding artery….

Flowed every piece of my heart & soul to you….

I gave my heart, my mind, my soul….

To you!

I trusted,

I believed in you….

I defended you!

I saw you in a better light, than you are!

I never thought , I could …

Hate you, till now.

I never thought, I would…

Hate you, till now.

I knew, I knew all along….

My heart, kept telling my mind….

I was wrong!

But… I knew…

I should have kept away…

You took the one thing…

The one memory….

The one good piece of my past….

You took that and set it on fire!

You danced and watched it burn….

You just looked on…

You never stopped to think…

You never really cared…

Beyond… your needs!

I never, thought I could….

Hate you, till now.

I never, thought I would….

Hate you, till now.

You did this!

You opened that door!

You kept pushing….

Relentless…..

You wouldn’t stop!

Why?

Not as if you needed to….

God knows….

You’re busy!

I never, thought I could…

Hate you, till now.

I never thought, I would…

Hate you, till now.

Everything good….

Every memory…

Ripped & Torn….

Shattered to shreds!

I never thought, I could…

Hate you, till now.

I never thought, I would…

Hate you, till now.

I never knew…. my kindness,

would be seen as weak!

I never knew… my compassion,

Would be seen as weak!

I never knew… my Love for you.

Would be used, against me…

I never thought, I could…

Hate you, till now.

I never thought, I would…

Hate you, till now.

I gave you my heart…. at 16.

I kept it hidden, tucked away….

You unlocked it… at 43….

I should have stayed….

Very far away!

I never thought, I could…

Hate you, till now.

I never thought, I would…

Hate you, not ever!

But…. yet, here we are!

My love…

Shattered, used against me, & betrayed!

I would have had more respect…..

If you, handled it with honor, integrity…

If you would have…

Simply….

Doesn’t even matter…..

I did this….

I gave you, my heart & soul….

I can reclaim them…!

I ….

I never thought, I could…

Hate you, till now.

I …

I never thought, I would…

I…

Hate how…. I love you…

 

I have to save myself…..

From loving you.

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