I fell for every cliche you threw at me… Like some lost love sick puppy!
You will never truly understand the anger I have at myself for that!
The anger that builds in me for you!
They say… you go through stages of grief …. mourning, if you will…
I guess the initial shock… has warn off!
I go from worry…. to anger, at the rate of a mock 2 jet engine taking off!
There’s a fire inside me….
Burning so hot!
It boils….
My veins feel, like molten lava are flowing inside them!
There is a constant movie reel now playing inside my head….
24-7….
Staring…. You!
And the fall out… of your mass self destruction!!!
You scream….
How, not one person cares!
How you feel so shattered inside …
Yet… truth is!
You are this deceptive lighthouse…
Drawing us all in…..
Its everyone around you…. that is broken and shattered…
As we draw in close to reach out… as you pull us in with your lies and deceptions ! Such a tangled web you weave….
How many prey…. Have you caught? In that web of yours?
I should have known better!
I was supposed to be smarter than this!
I knew of you charm… I knew!!!
I watched you… spin your web since we were kids! I knew all the tricks!
You went too far!
My emotions are like the angry sea…..
They just want to lash out at you right now! My spirit & soul just don’t have the heart or energy for it…. it just seems pointless ; to be honest.
Besides…..
What point would there be? The damage done…. has…. been done! You took the most valuable piece of me… My trust…. My Love, my heart! The very thing I have held onto…. You were freely given….. it cost me dearly…. And you…. just!…. discarded anything we built…. that Foundation of friendship… our bond, I thought was so soiled… so strong!
You disregarded it….. as if…. it were a hobby…. you simply got bored with! Tossed aside…. Until… you needed it again ….. Until…… I…. Found out… Until… my eyes were truly opened… to what… my instincts…. knew!
I was always…. living..
In a day dream….. when it came to you!a memory… of our past! That you… have now… trashed!
jenzphelps 