Drowning Here

I am drowning…..

I am struggling to keep afloat.

You just hit me with a fatal blow!

Yes it is true…

I am human after all!

Hypocrisy, flaws, & all!

I am not perfect!

I never asked you to put me on the glass shelf!

I love how you flipped everything….

Back onto me!

Never once…

Did you…

Own your crap!

I at least was honest!

I could at least admit my flaws!

Own I was wrong!

Admit… I too am human!!!

You say, I have lost myself?

Perhaps that is true!

I lost it somewhere…..

Trying to help you!

I lost myself in completely loving you!

You are absolutely, correct about that!

I heard you…

Loud & clear!

I hear you even when you are silent as a mouse!

I know you….

All to well….

That is why,

It hurts so damn much!

I am drowning….

Over here….

You are just to removed to care!

You felt violated?

How do you think…..

I feel? Still?……..

You have a very narrow view of the world sometimes.

You say, pride is bad, but when I swallow my pride and tell you….

I am bleeding from my soul…..

You turn your back!

When I needed,

That conversation!

You just avoid, deny, deflect…..

I am trying to learn, understand, & heal!

I see everything we once were….

Being ripped to shreds…

Right before my eyes!

I can’t even stop it!

I hate it!!!

Because when all is said & done…..

There is only… one you!

Only… one us….

We have that history!

I hate seeing it…. end this way!!!

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