I am drowning…..
I am struggling to keep afloat.
You just hit me with a fatal blow!
Yes it is true…
I am human after all!
Hypocrisy, flaws, & all!
I am not perfect!
I never asked you to put me on the glass shelf!
I love how you flipped everything….
Back onto me!
Never once…
Did you…
Own your crap!
I at least was honest!
I could at least admit my flaws!
Own I was wrong!
Admit… I too am human!!!
You say, I have lost myself?
Perhaps that is true!
I lost it somewhere…..
Trying to help you!
I lost myself in completely loving you!
You are absolutely, correct about that!
I heard you…
Loud & clear!
I hear you even when you are silent as a mouse!
I know you….
All to well….
That is why,
It hurts so damn much!
I am drowning….
Over here….
You are just to removed to care!
You felt violated?
How do you think…..
I feel? Still?……..
You have a very narrow view of the world sometimes.
You say, pride is bad, but when I swallow my pride and tell you….
I am bleeding from my soul…..
You turn your back!
When I needed,
That conversation!
You just avoid, deny, deflect…..
I am trying to learn, understand, & heal!
I see everything we once were….
Being ripped to shreds…
Right before my eyes!
I can’t even stop it!
I hate it!!!
Because when all is said & done…..
There is only… one you!
Only… one us….
We have that history!
I hate seeing it…. end this way!!!
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