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People will disappoint you

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So yes, people will let you down in life and disappoint you. It is a fact, after all we are only human. Oftentimes, our expectations were simply just too high, or perhaps that’s just it; they were *our* expectations and not the desires or intentions of the other person.

Communication is the key, but that requires two parties to verbally identify their needs, intentions & desires. Life is just too short to get caught up in the what if”s or maybe’s…

Be bold enough to live outloud, bold enough to have the courage to speak on your emotions, needs, & desires. Bold enough to be honest about your feelings. That takes courage, it takes honesty and knowing ones self!

That requires for you to truly reflect & own your faults as well as your strengths. It requires, humility, grace, integrity & and a earnest desire to find your truth!

It requires you to not hide behind your past, or trauma, or life circumstance. It requires you to embrace every step in your journey, it requires you own the events that have lead you to this point.

People will disappoint you…. Because we are simply, *Human*…

That should however, not stop you from being your best self & embracing life, the good, the joyful, & the bad, the painful… Those are the lessons we need to carry us to the next step on this journey!

If you can’t dance in the rain, learn to admire its beauty! You just might learn from it.

#lifelessons #lifegoals #embraceyourself

Stormy Weather

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Today was a rough day at work. Somedays are just emotionally draining just because of the nature of my job. Helping people heal…

I respect all the parts that come together to make things work. Nothing is ever a quick or simple fix! I don’t mind that or hard work. I like being busy, I like helping others.

I go home and I can sleep easy knowing I did an honest days work & helped change someone’s life for the better.

Not everyday feels like a success. Today felt very much like the weather outside, stormy, wet, dark & messy!

Some days, life simply is messy!

Letting your gaurd down

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I think the hardest thing in life is opening up to someone. To put faith and trust into another individual. Life isn’t really that different from nature. When it rains and the world crashes down around us; we close in our walls and put up our protective layers. Not unlike a flower that draws in its petals during the rain storm.

I think I seek out the beauty in each day, because I see the pain and feel the suffering of so many around me. It’s like I have to look past all the craziness of the world to find the little nuggets of beauty God places around us.

If you think about it, not much unlike the videos games children play. Characters go through intense situations and after each obstacle is overcome, they are rewarding with; treats that renew their energy.

God has done that for us; when we choose to see it. I try to find a creative art outlet in each day. Today it was after visiting my Nanny in the nursing home. I parked beside a Magnolia tree, it had rained and the sun was just starting to peek out, from under the heavy blue-gray clouds.

Today I really missed talking to my friend. There isn’t much I don’t want to share and tell him about, when you find someone you trust, truly trust in life; well that is hard to walk away from.

You don’t get many of those moments in life, they are far and few in between. It’s hard to let your petals or walls down during the rain.

My art

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My art

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I have always drawn since before age of 13 and journaled. Visually, I have also always loved art. Be it fashion, home decor, paintings, jewelry, or music. Art in any format, I tend to be drawn to.

For me, painting came much later in life, I took art history in school & college, learning about styles of art and color, light, and shadows. In my 20’s; I got into photography, quickly loved digital photography with the editing; and everything you can do to bring a photo to life or tell your story by changing something, as as simple as lighting.

Painting however; challenged me, in many ways. I started out with acrylics, I still prefer them as you can water them down to almost water colors or thicken them up & add other outside elements to fade the color or add texture and depth; or you can use the slightest hint of pigment and give a soft suttle feel to a painting

Photography made me study every aspect of light and shadows. To look and not see a tree but rather branches with holes of light reflecting off the surfaces. Leaves were no longer simply green, but now entire hues of shades of green, yellow, sky blue, and depths of black and browns.

Photography opened up a whole new worldview for me. It impacts you in ways you don’t realize. Being a nurse, I am a caregiver, observation is second nature. You notice colors of skin, flesh, body fluids, and shades and hues of gray or blue. You learn that pale tones in the flesh correlate with whether someone is ill or not feeling well. That red tones could possibly indicate emotional responses such as passion or anger. Nothing is no longer black & white. Everything and everyone suddenly has depth and underlying layers.

You have to slowly pillage through the layers to see what lies beneath the surface. Similar to painting, where you must slowly build up the layers to show depth & emotion.

I really started painting when my daughter Summer was diagnosed with a mass in her brain. I found I was unable to sleep at night, unable to empty out the thoughts from my mind. Focusing on layers of emotions, expressions, and colors allowed me to detach from the intensity of my reality and escape for a little while.

In many ways… you might say, art saved me from myself.

The paintings above, are just a few of ways of how I have explored the world through shades of color over the last few years.

New world of art to explore!

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I came to wordpress to journal and empty my mind. I am beyond excited to discover a whole new world of artists. I have enjoyed following a variety of artists on other social media platforms over the years.  I think just the concept that this format allows for a more intimate experience, is most intriguing.

So often as an artist you get highlighted into one category,  but the truth is; as artists we simply think and see the world so differently. Utilizing diverse forms of art and expression is what make an artist so unique.

To be able to share all sides and incorporate that into new creative ideas and art is something,  I have been longing for awhile now. Due to work and life being so busy, I have been relying on photography to break up the day and keep the creativity flowing.

#randomthingsyouseewhiledriving #godscanvas #nobodypaintslikegod #phototherapy #nature #photography #itsthelittlethings #randomphotoshelpbreakuptheday

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Welcome to my journey

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I use to journal all the time. I have journaled in many different formats over the years. This past year, I guess it was in the format of emails with a cherished friend.

I feel the need to start again. I am entering a different phase of life and hopefully this will help me sort through the chaos. I don’t plan on censoring myself here, this is my place to unload and for once not hide behind anonymity.

This is my journey, “Not all who wander are lost” J. R. R. Tolkien That is true, but I won’t go as far as to say I know what it is I am seeking either…